A DEEP BOND

NOT FOR A TIME PASS.............
30th june,2009,
7p.m


dear friends,
good evening!the sky is cloudy and the sea is silent.new ships have anchored in the harbour and i can see dona paula at the other end.the day was nice and slightly busy.but,friends always stretch out the helping hands.and the work is completed on time.we will be every busy from tomorrow,when the new month begins and i will be carrying work home. so many submissons,presentations and deadlines!still i can't breathe without my posts.
today bindu had come to meet and she is leaving this place for ever!as a counsellor,iam satisfied in her case,as she can still smile despite of all adversaties................anu,cool!''you could cheer her up''!
away from parents,dear and near ones,we are often at a loss!and when confronted with tensions,we go blank!but friends,GOD is really great!someone always takes care of us!when i had experienced such a shade in my life,i felt of penning down my thoughts..............

An unexpected turn we all have to face ,
at sometime of our lives,
confused and perplexed she stared at the future,
the gloomy heart she had to hide.
she wept inside.........
a simple and silly female she is
she tried to laugh and made others laugh,
but the more she cried,
whose heart is full of love,
a butterfly and and a blooming flower,
made her day and she wrote posts on that.
she was burning inside,
and the showers touched her and left.
mysterious she is always,
not wanting others to know her.
but so sincere,so honest,
she wrote with her emotions pouring out!
friends she had, but they always hurt her,
alone she wanted to remain,
the rest of her life.........
then, one day,from far away,
a soft voice reached her.
she refused to listen and ignored him,
as she lost the faith in all.
he never left her,
but waited patiently,
for he knew,she wanted someone very badly...........
he was young and full of dreams ,
and he had a postive attitude.
he told her to listen to him,
she left him and disappeared...........
he had patience and optimistic was he,
as he knew she is too good.
yes,she did come back,
and he offered her the moral support,

and a shoulder to lean on.
often she was broken,
over silly reasons,
but she felt that was the end of her world,
he convinced her,to be calm and cool,
nothing has changed,the world is the same.
he is the one who helped her ,
to regain the mental strength.
she smiled and started enjoying life........
she has a real friend now,
not to define this just as friendship,
words fail while defining ,
this mental connection.
how different are you,she exclaimed!
and where were you in bygone days?
within the heart a rainbow is carved,
and she loves colours more than anyone.
she can watch the silver lining,
behind the dark clouds,
dear,she wants to live ,
and fed up of counting the gains and losses,
now she needs the love n joy,
the songs and the dreams,
as who knows what is in store for her!
her forgotten days of happiness have come,
recalling the pleasant memories.
he came and she woke from sleep,
the light blossomed in flowers of joy!
to that young man miles across ,
along with a tear drop,
let me gift this beautiful rose!

i have held the thorns

so,it will not prick you,dear.
you have taught me ,
the life is still a beautiful song,
for which we can give a happy note!
living by your words,
cooled by your love and care,
strengthened by your good words,
may i say,it was the blow to my ego,
and you made me aware,
pride goes before a fall!
and when the pain is silenced,
by the golden letters,
dear my friend,i need rain,
to cry my heart out!

it's anu signing off...................

i know, silence has strength and i am experiencing the emotions,but i love to spread my rainbow-coloured wings wide..................now,i want to listen what song the birds are singing.......

Tab tujh hi se mujhay sub kuch miley.........
Phir kyon na mujh ko tum miley?

wishing you a cool peaceful night,
sasneham,
anu

SANGODD

UPDATING THE EVENTS .....................

29th,june,2009,

7 p.m

dear friends,

good evening.after two months, i reported for duty today.the day was nice and going to get busy now with the work load.amma read my last post from pc and i felt very happy.nanda's presence does magic and i miss them badly.my friend asha sharma is on leave and i had to have my tiffin alone during break.the formal quieries were there-''hai,anu,how are you?''''where were you?''''we missed you''.thanks,dear friends,who really care for me.

i hope,all of you know i am not at trichur anymore.i live in a place where nature has blessed the location with beaches and hills.my building overlooks into the sea,the harbour.the ships are anchored and the reflections of light in the water fill one's mind with peace and romance.five minutes in my balcony takes me to another world.i woke up today to the konkani songs flowing through the loudspeaker.then i remembered.today is special for the locals.

29th,june is a sacred day for the fishermen as the day is dedicated to their patron saint,St.peter along with St.paul.Sangodd is of two hundred years old tradition.they venture out into the rivers as usual at the crack of dawn.but instead of rowing their canoes to catch fish,today the fishermen tie their traditional wooden canoes together and form the Sangodd.palm leaves and bamboos are used to decorate the Sangodd to resemble a chapel.

Saangodd,the festival of fishermen ,is another occasion for the locals to celebrate the spirit of the land and thank their guarding spirits.

i have promised someone this post will be short,so,i have to stop here.

it's anu signing off.............

i hope,this information will be helpful for you before visiting this beautiful land.here,people celebrate life in each moment.they rock the parties.

paying homage to my beloved director,SHRI.LOHITHA DAS and praying whole heartedly for the peace of the departed soul,

let me remind you,life is short..........please learn to forgive.anu loves you all.

good night!

sasneham,

anu

ELLAVARKUM VANAKKAM!

GLIMPSES OF CHENNAI

28th,sunday,june,
2009
8a.m

Dear friends,
ellavarkkum vanakkam!
after one week,anu reached her destination yesterday afternoon travelling for twenty four hours.it was a long journey.we had our family get together in chennai.only amma was in trichur.after two years ,we five siblings were together.it was very nice,enjoying the love,togetherness and caring.ettan n fly will be reaching middle east by 10a.m.ettan,i miss you ,a lot.the fun we had,my pranks and achu's engagement,lots of happenings in chennai.kishen,jeevz and nanda could join us!
achu and appu exchanged the rings on 24th morning at MGM beach resorts in between 9a.m-10 a.m.[they had exchanged their hearts much before].the diamond ring suited her thin long finger so well.they are real wonderful couple!achu looked so beautiful in maroon and yellow kanccheepuram saree and appu was awesome in his sandal wood and maroon sherwani.may God bless you dearies,to be always together !
those who plan for honeymoons,book a cottage in MGM resorts.i must tell you,guys,simply breathtaking!
imagine,enjoying the fresh sea breeze,we had our breakfast in the reastuarant touching the water.what a romantic atmosphere!cool!the endless green lawns,the swimming pool,the river where we can go for boating,the whole place make you stay there!we relive our youth and will be in high spirits!appu,thanks alot for your wonder choice of location!

anu had surprises for everyone,specially nanda.you must be remembering,24th was nanda's birthday!amma had written a lovely poem and letter with lord Guruvayoorappan's photo.that was her first gift of the and she called amma and took amma's blessings.
after the engagement function,anu took over the anouncement and gave a short speech on nanda,singing happy birthday and every one joined her.hey,guys,nanda was blushing!it was unexpected!and we presented her a bouquet!cool!it will be an unforgettable b'day for nanda,dearest!i'm proud of you,dear.and you deserve the best.and the kerala style sadya was too delicious.
travelling together the long distance from egmore,to MGM,crossing the second longest beach of asia,marina beach,we had a nice time!i had to complain only about the weather,it was burning!
we were accomodated in a three bedroom flat with well furnished kitchen and with two cooks!so,food was not at all a problem!the main cook,hari is a north indian.it was nice to see him lighting the lamp twice a day and praying to god.how can i forget the coffee,he prepared?can you ,believe,near our building,in the adjacent house,someone was lighting the lamp at thulsi thara and i saw the grandmother praying and taking rounds of thulsi thara.amma,i was remembering you!our house at guruvayoor!our thulsi thara was infront of my eyes!
the first dialogue i learned was while getting into the lift-''dayavayi kathaku mooduka''.[okeys,but don't ask me to close my mouth shut].the local people were nice!they answered our queries with a smile!hey,the jasmine flowers made me mad!what fragrance man!the real jasmine that come from madurai!i am crazy about jasmine!every day,early morning,the kolam at the door step,filter coffee,sahasra namam,jasmine flowers and glass bangles with chennai silk saree!wow!
i must tell you this;the previous night we left chennai,appu had invited us for dinner at rain forest in adayar.you need booking to get a table.we got it at 9.15p.m.before that we did shopping and went for a stroll at santhome beach.rain forest,a must visit reasturant,guys.it's like a cave.the whole resturant is dark with water falls and trees.it is so cool inside.the roof was done with thatched coconut leaves with straw on the roof!we can listen to the water falling through rocks,the leaves swaying and the delicious food served!i came out after finishing my food and for that i missed the best gift!along with the bills,they brought orange coloured bangles for ladies and chocolates for gents!have you ever heard such a custom before?
the unforgettable experience i had was meeting my guru and philosopher in the railway station.thanks a lot dear friend,some one was waiting for me before i reached!he had a gift for me-a fiction,doomsday prophecy.your presence conveyed the kindness and what a thorough gentleman!hey,i was so comfortable with you as if we knew since ages!good that we met!hope you liked my simple gift!you could prove,friends are an asset!
hey,anu was loaded with gifts!so sweet of nanda,she got me a yellow coloured umbrella with all cartoon characters portrayed and it 's beautiful![please read,my older post,'anu and her umbrellas'].maza,the bangle and bracelet are amazing!and the chocolates from middle east and my jasmine perfume!ettan had given me the transparent pencil kit![i hope all of you know my wish lists now].so,you can decide what can be your gift for me!and the jasmine flowers should be in apiece of plantain leaf!anu is crazy for all these small things like bangles and marbles,balloons and kanmashi! and books,a must!
tomorrow,i have to report for duty!my counselling session starts from morning and by 3p.m i can reach home.feeling so lazy to get up early and go for work.now the formal wear,and the files,so many things to be kept ready!
it's anu signing off.............
as usual,anu forgot her mobile in the flat in chennai and had to go back to take it.after reaching here,she realised the charger is left somewhere else and new one was purchased yesterday.
we crossed the water falls and the jungles and it was raining.........what a wonderful experience!.......i miss amma,nanda,kishen and all my people.thanks lot,deep,for sending sms on nand's birthday and to you dear,for best wishes!romba nandri!
''koncha neram,koncha neram............konchi pesha koodatha...........''hey appu and the whole family sing so well........achu sleeps to his songs now.............great!
have a great sunday!cheer up!anu loves you all.oh.i forgot to tell you.anu is completing her six months of blogging in june.chumma,say oru hearty congrats!
sasneham,
anu

SHALL WE MEET AGAIN?

I DON'T KNOW, WHEN...........

20th,june,2009.

saturday

dear friends,

yesterday i walked in the rain while plucking flowers from the garden.and by night,i was running high temperature,my body was shivering.without telling amma, i could manage till 4 a.m.it was terrible,having head ache and feeling helpless when it was pouring outside.today,most of the time i was on bed,sleeping on antibiotics.i must sleep early today.but before sleeping,i've an urge to write something as just one day is left before leaving trichur.

unknown and mysterious are the ways of the Almighty.............never did i expect that i would be laid up with high temperature.but,thanksto the Providence,that

i could reach out to u!

the night is cool and my blanket is waiting.

but,i must pen down these lines from my heart.

it's about the happenings of the last one month,

and i must share them with you,my friends.

the days in trichur,from first week of may,

passed so fast at the wink of an eye.

i never knew i will be crossing many new faces,

some walked by,some touched my heart,

i must say thanks to all those friends,

anu is not bad in feelings and thoughts.

some got confused for the affection showered,

let them remain so,as i'm tired,

hey,i just can't prove what i'm,

my memories start flowing now.

how can i forget my dearest friend,

who offered me a garden full of flowers.

when i needed a shoulder,he was always there,

and he taught me how to be strong.

thanks a lot,guruji,for the moral support,

thanks for being my source of inspiration.

i'm so happy i'v e come across you in my life,

you are the only one who forced me to write a post daily.

when i was broken,someone was awake,

consoling me by his music,

and he played guitar at night,

dedicated the wonderful poem for me!

and i recited the poem aloud.

giving life to each word!

that was really wonderful,

someone listening to you patiently,

music has the healing touch.

and this double shaded rose is his gift to me!

i know,you don't like me saying,'alvida'.

how can i forget the young angry man,

who could be so tough with me,

still you could offer a musical video for me,

and i'm still thrilled about that!

good that we parted our ways,

just the scars will be deep inside.

hey,my first blogger friend,

whom i admire the most,

he is always the first,but chooses to be the last,

for whose posts the whole world awaits,

and his fan the pink panther,

who prefers the superfast to travel,

but for the first time,

i have become a friend of a panther,

what ideas flow humorously,

nice knowing you,dear.

my loving brother in the desert,

who taught me how to love rain,

who made me realise how much,

sincere bond can be built,

with unknown minds.

i still love your poems,

but you are not writing these days,

my young friend at tvpm,

who needs a word of cheer always,

he is an upcoming artist,

and you have a special place in my thoughts.

dear tej,you are always in the hide out,

and you come on line and make my eyes wet,

be in touch dear,i will miss u,

you are the only one from my place.

here,he is who wrote about the temple,

the ambalakavu stories,

and dear trichur friend,

thanks for all suggestions and ideas,

how can i leave you my dearest,

who has forgotten the promises?

you 're the first to dedicate a photo post for me.

and the words made me cry!

after a pilgrimage you forgot trichur,

but i know you read my posts:)

it's a great feeling,as if you're near!

someone reached me at late night,

totally shattered and broken,

he is so calm and cool,

nice knowing you friend,

the only sincere and loyal friend,

from outside blogosphere,

who never fails to make me smile,

with his morning mails,

many came and went without leaving amark,

and some have left deep scars for ever,

grateful i'm to all the good souls,

they have made anu spread a smile,

and when i'm leaving trichur,

on 22nd,monday,night,

i really wish there shoud be heavy rain,

as anu can cry her heart out!

amma is sleeping now.each day i will be waiting to come back and hug you,dearest amma.but i don't know,when next.

i will be breaking one of my resolutions.anu has decided to meet two of her unknown friends in chennai and feels so excited about that.i could not say 'no'to you as your sincere friendship has touched my heart.don't ask me questions and clarifications on who os who........:) keep guessing which frame you fit in!

it's anu signing off.....................................

this post is dedicated to trichur,that filled my mind with fragrance of friendship.

and my friend taught me,''no girl/man is worth your tears,but once you find that is he/she won't make you cry.''i heard you,right?

anu will be out of range for one week,and hopefully back to join you by end of june,once she reaches her destination!but posts will be less,while work will be more!i will never be in this relaxed mood!

hey,to my north indian belt,i have to get gifts!they love chips,bananas and murukku!

thanks for my friends who wished me speedy recovery,but i'm still suffering from fever.

for the first time i completed the post,the next day..............i read out the post to amma and ettan and to be frank,i had to skip a few lines.:)[don't tell amma,please.............]

have a great day ahead and wish me bye............shall we meet again?

sasneham,

anu

RAIN DROPS CAUSING TEARS....................

would you like to join me?

17th june,2009

12.oo,noon,

thursday

dear friends,

today is muppettu thursday,a very auspicious day,specially in krishna temples.there will be too much rush at sree krishna temple,guruvayoor.i feel sad,i could not have darshan of unnikannan.every day morning,i fondly pamper my kannan on my template.i just can't explain you,i talk to kanha,share my sorrows and update the daily happenings.i offer special prayers for the needy.and i smile and i feel happy and in high spirits!the day is made!the positive energy flows,outwitting the negative ones.but i just don't know,when it starts raining,the heart beats are fast and i start experiencing thrilling emotions!

it's raining heavily in trichur,

and i have to leave here,shortly,

i'm really feeling gloomy,

i can't think of going away.

the sun doesn't shine brightly,

and the nights are darker now.

my heart sighs n sighs heavily,

and the loneliness creeps in.

sitting near the window,

trying to hold the rain drops,

i put my hands outside,

i must get a few drops.

recollecting the yester years,

anu is desperate to sail those paper boats,

but where is her friend,who should join her?

there were promises of togetherness.

and when it rains,and the showers are thicker,

she wants to hold his hand,you,

whom she loved the most.

and thinking about him while it's raining,

she blooms like the jasmine plant.

anu wants to walk long distances,

rain drops splashing all over her body,

and still she burns n burns with her feelings,

and crying her heart out ,she walks,

as no one will hear her crying,

in the heavy rain,lightening and thunder,

knowing not where she is treading,

will you be there,dear,

to pacify her ailing heart?

and awaiting your response,

shivering in the showers,

she is in a dream world!

it's anu signing off.................

this poem is written without any draft like all other posts and it took only fifteen minutes to reach the last line.anu dedicates this poem to the great soul who wants to wipe the tears and to walk with her,feeling the rain:)

and today,when anu wishes all,

HAPPY BUDDIE'S DAY,

she must get an answer as it's still raining...............

thanks alot dear guru,for the wonderful image on feelings while raining.it speaks my heart............

and here are the beautiful lines dedicated by the sincere friend,

'' Aawaz koyi kehati hai ha koyi,

koyi nazar phir aaye na kyun,

jaane kahaan se aahat hai,

aayine mei koyi hai..........''

hello,where did you learn mind reading?

love you,all guys,deep from my heart..........

sasneham,

anu

ANU'S PRANKS

THE TINKLING OF GLASS BANGLES

KUPPI VALA KILUKKAM

17th june,2009

wednesday
9a.m

dear friends,

good morning!it's raining and the leaves are trembling,the blooms are withering and my butterflies are not dancing.trichur is cool.today is mithunam,3rd[malayala masam].

before going out to enjoy the rain and the cool showers on my face,i must write this post.

it was another day,when i went out with achu[ash] to catch up with some urgent work.i never like to shoulder responsibilities,try to shirk them always.as nanda was not with me,i had to be in another role doing al the must do work.we went to the tailor first.as usual, the clothes were not stiched and another date was given.as my holidays are going to be terminated,this time i gave her a final date. and when we reached the road,i remembered,my handbag was not with me.this happens many times with me,the bag,the umbrella etc, i forget them very often.achu went back and got it.we left for 'goodwill'.and i must tell you,this is exclusively for ladies and hence it turns out for gents too. they will get all the gifts needed here,for their sweet hearts for any occasion.[hey,guys of trichur,it's near kalyan silks].

i simply love to spend my time here,admiring the thousands of glass bangles,the marvellous colourful world of bangles.when the salesman asked for the saree to choose the matching bangles,to my horror,i found out,the kanjeepuram saree was left with the tailor and i had brought another carry bag in which the tailor had kept someone else's clothes,cut and to be stiched. i took my moblie and called her.

''maya,please,i left the saree with you and your clothes are with me.''''yes,i know''.''please take an auto and come to goodwill.i'm waiting.''so,sweet of her,she agreed.

achu was busy on her mobile and i had to pass time till maya reached.so,i took out my digital cam and started taking the photos of the glass bangles,in different colours and shapes.within ten minutes,maya reaches and the problem was solved.the gents know how to mix and match the colours,really well.what a beautiful combination!meroon and yellow!from my childhood i always loved these bangles.the tinkling of these bangles.and when i write,or shake my hands,they make the sound!what a music to ears!i love temple festivals,the wonderful atmosphere,the fragrance of insence sticks,different flowers,the well decorated idols of gods and goddesses,the devotional songs,and the different stalls.i was confused which colour will suit me and which bangles look more beautiful.wearing those bangles from the wrist to the elbow,laughing and giggling ,the days were enjoyed the best!and the broken pieces were kept safely to weld and make chains.but i love to wear the bangles after putting mehandi[milanchi].

it should be that way;the soft hands adorned with bangles and smelling mehandi,holding a rose!what a perfect scene!they remind me of suhra and majnu!

hold them softly,and the tinkles of glass bangles and the jasmine flowers on the plaited hair and a cute smile on the rosy lips,and the traditional attire.............what more can you ask for?

and for that dream girl,wait impatiently.this is the dream i dedicate you today,when it's raining...............

it's anu signing off.....................

with a word of cheer,and a prayer in my heart i wish all of you a bright and peaceful day!

anu loves you all.

at times,i do feel,how foolish i am to spend my precious time over these evanescent silly things!but anu can't change.she is silly and simple. :)

thanks for your dedication my friend,the song still lingers......

hum dil de chuke sanam,

tere ho gaya he hum,tere kasam.................

sasneham,

anu

BY THE RIVER SIDE...........................

MY HEART SKIPS A BEAT.............................

16th may,2009

9a.m

tuesday.

dear friends,

good morning!it rained yesterday night and trichur is cool.what apleasant atmosphere.the last few days,i was busy,travelling wide beyond trichur,visiting relatives and the last minute shopping before leaving.bygone memories haunt me when i see this beautiful photos.on the way to kochi,we had a stop over at aunt's place by the river side of aluva puzha.always i loved this place.the backyard of the house stretches to the river and the steps take you straight to the river.what a greenery!we can see the river through the plants.the river is silently flowing......and on the steps,enjoying the cool breeze and the fresh air,i would like to read chetan's 'the three mistakes of my life'.i don't know how many times i've read it.or i can go for,'the english teacher'by r.k.narayan.

and yes,the coffe is a must in the thermos.then anu is in another world,a world of her own,where there are no arguments,no conflicts,no question answer session,no botheration.and the heart is filled with the soft feelings,and the mind is floated high above.have you experienced this kind of feeling?with no one beside me,and no anxiety whether i will be losing that friend,i can spend long hours enjoying the marvellous feast for eyes and mind.the river persuades me to think of the paramathma.it flows peacefully to meet the ocean,reminding me that all of us have to move forward to join our saviour,the almighty!

we forget to acknowledge for the smiles we received,for the kind gestures,and the love showered on us!someone somewhere always prays for us.let 's be grateful............please send the mail,make a call or leave acomment if you have to say or if you have forgotten to say,''thank you''.it does make a difference.please do it today for your anu,and then make it a habit. :) it simply works wonders!

''Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.

it turns what we have into enough and more.

it turns denial into acceptance,

chaos to order,confusion to clarity.

it can turn a meal into a feast,

a house into ahome,a stranger into a friend.

gratitude makes sense of our past,

brings peace for today,

and creates a vision for tomorrow''.

it's anu signing off...........................

i want to express my gratitude to every one of you who have come to my page leaving behind a word of cheer,appreciation and encouragement .i value your suggestions.

posts will be reduced now,as i'm leaving shortly.............

have a great day...............anu loves you all.and when it was pouring,anu could write apoem in hindi and her friend gave music and it was sung melodiously.............oh!it was real music,guys!someone sings so softly when the night is dark and the rain falls with rhythm.an unforgettable night at trichur! :)

a:) for all..................special thanks to my mentor for the quote.and i must mention the last comment for the previous post and the call as they made my night.................and to add to my spirits,it was raining...................so,anu had smile and a prayer to take to bed while hugging amma and sleeping..................

and i dedicate this post to my friend,who played guitar and gave music to my lines and who sang it for me!thanks alot,as i needed that yesterday...................and a pat for anu who wrote apoem in hindi! :)

have a great day...........

sasneham,

anu

CONFESSIONS

STILL I HAVE A ROSE FOR YOU!

14.06.09,

sunday,

7.30.m

Dear friends,

good evening.busy travelling long distances with ettan

n fly,visiting relatives and shopping.life is hectic, still

i've to come to you.anu is your friend.trichur is getting

hotter without rains.hope you enjoyed this weekend.

guys,we get often confused and perplexed when we

receive unexpected gifts,and overflowing affection.the

integrity of the giver is questioned and doubts

remain.why is it so?a small thought on self

experience.........

she is honest and believes in true friendship,

she is loving and gives a lot of love,

she takes time to make his day,

all the while she loses her day,

she gives a smile n expects nothing in return,

but her smiles are snatched away,

she builds bridges to connect easily,

but the sand is blown away under her feet,

she is mysterious for reasons known only to her,

but she was questioned many times,

for her identity not discovered,

her mind is disturbed and cheeks are wet,

she will never let you know how hurt she is,

how many sleepless nights she has faced,

no painkillers could help her,

as the pain seeps through her broken heart,

if the silence can convey some message to you,

hearty congrats on your special day,

when she will be in the farthest corner of darkness,

as she believes even her shadow will be a bad omen!

leaving all the smiles and good wishes,

she wants to retreat,as it was just for you ,

she deleted her favourite post written in blood.

but good wishes always remain,

and she still has a rose for you,

who is ignorant of the true value of the rose!

i take this time to say,

certain feelings can't be explained.

the smile on your face should never go away.......

hope you are at peace with yourself,

as she chants the sincere prayers for you!

it's anu signing off..........

hey,singapore,how'z the birthday blast?dear,i was in

cochin and in a very bad shape late night,belated

birthday wishes to you.partying with dragon

dancers? :)

dear asha,

many many happy returns of the day![hey,you are one

reason that i come back to work]. :)

enjoy this night for these moments can't be recovered.

anu loves you all.

sasneham,

anu

GENTLE GREENS!

PRANAMS TO ALMIGHTY!

12.06.09

FRIDAY,

5p.m

Dear friends,

good evening!there is no rain since three days!when it rains,we grumble for all the inconveniences it causes and when the sun is bright,again we curse the scorching heat!it's human nature!

often i feel like retiring to myself,away from this hectic routine and busy life somewhere in the lap of nature,where i can sit alone by the river side ,reading my favourite fiction,listening to the running water ,and where there is no pc to distract me!

this lovely picture is taken from motivational thoughts of when God paints.i thought i will share the wonderful thought and snap with you.

''When God paints,

he uses gentle greens,

sprouting through all of nature,

As His love and grace grows each day!''

God has painted this world wonderfully and we forget to stop by to admire this marvellous creation!let's open our eyes and appreciate this beautiful world gifted to us by The Almighty!i wish to quote the famous lines of Robert Frost..........

''The woods are lovely dark and deep,

But i have promises to keep,

And miles to go before i sleep,

And miles to go before i sleep''.

it's anu signing off.............

anu loves you all.

thanks a lot to my mentor,guru and friend of chennai. :)

wishing a peaceful weekend,

sasneham,

anu

A THANK YOU NOTE!

BEFORE GOING AWAY..............


11.06.09,


THURSDAY,


11p.m


dear friends,


morning while browsing through the mails,


there was this pleasant surprise!


the notification of a post,


on 'before going away.........'


and least i expected that was dedicated to anu!,


unbelievable and that from him,


an unexpected friend of mine,


with whom i've exchanged harsh words,


ignored his online status often,


and disappeared without a'bye',


i still don't know,'why'?


and what made him write this poem,


and the words are straight from his heart,


which made my eyes wet and heart melt,


who is he to me,i don't know;


but a friendship slowly blooms,


taking back the unwanted words,


sorry,pal,for being rude with you,


anu doesn't keep anything in her heart,


she doesn't like to hurt anyone,


she can't see others' mental pain.


and today whole heartedly ,believe yaar,


anu wants to apologise,


for her indifference to you!


for refusing a smile to you!


i had other plans for the day,


but little did i know,


this wonderful gift will make my day!


and now when the night is cool,


when i'm filled with cheer,


i experience a special tranquility,


for which you played a major role!


amma taught me very well,


remorse is the best remedy,


for changing the attitude


and the whole perspective of our lives....................





it's anu signing off.................


i repeat your lines..................


''enikkithu parayanam,nee pokum munpe,


ennodithu parayanam,nee pokum munpe............''


simply,beautiful.....................


happiness is doubled when shared and i did it............


and to both the friends of kannur...................as the second post has been dedicated to anu a few hours before and that a video cast with music!lovely,na?thanks for your special ways to show you care!


thanks with a:)


for a wonderful day.....parting is always pianful,but inevitable too.


count down has started,but,friends,you can count on me.......

this post may not hold general interest,but i want to express my feelings not through mails but in my post.the moments of happinees and surprise make a difference to me and it will make to your thoughts too if you receive such beautiful dedications.....

shubha rathri.........


sasneham,


anu

NAMES AND NUMBERS,WHAT A CONFUSION!

NOT MY CUP OF TEA

10.06.09,

WEDNESDAY,

11 a.m

Dear friends,

yesterday i was busy,shopping with ettan and family.the colourful and different world of pattu sarees and other stuff in the famous shpopping mall in trichur!i enjoyed for some time then i was lost!ettan was forcing to buy the saree,but anu refused.she just wants to be left in a book shop where she can spend unlimited time browsing the books and magazines!

then later in the evening, visiting the relatives made me feel nice.it's building the bonds,exchanging pleasantries,making each other feel better.

trichur is hot today,''rain ,rain went away''.i went out with ettan for a walk.on the way,we parted our ways and he went to guruvayoor.i walked alone and reached the book stall.there was not much selection and i had to satisfy myself with a magazine.

when anu is alone,she is descent,well behaved.amma reminds anu to be extra descent but she leaves that 'extra' at home and goes out!but she doesn't pass comments on the passers by!the roads of pooram city are full of garbage,leaving no space for the pedestranion to take a few steps.and the slabs are too dangerous,half opened,and the rest shaken!i lose my balance soon,and i need to hold nanda or ettan.when i'm alone and i hold the bike or the rider ,the cycle or the cyclewallah.imagine,the pavement was too high and to get down to the road i needed someone's hand.one young man was riding his cycle and he slowed down infront of me.i caught hold of the cycle and guys,he was losing his balance in the busy road infront of lord vadakkunnathan!he was shocked and i was also scared!with a sweet and long ''sorry'' i escaped the scene!but i can't forget his perplexed countenance.hey,guys,i am pure in thoughts!if i hold your bike or cycle or you next time,don't give me a startled look!i do that to balance my steps:)and not to unbalance your emotions!

i can never remember names and numbers! i call ramesh by rajeev,rajeev by rakesh and roshan by roopesh!and if someone calls me by the wrong name,i make a big issue!if my name is spelt wrongly,you get on to my nerves!i used to meet a little boy of first standard, playing in my neighbour's compound on sundays.he is so smart and i love small children.i used to call out and ask him his name;hey,even now i don't remember it was sumesh or sandeep::)the second sunday ,when he comes to play,i will ask him his name again.he started ignoring me.but i couldn't leave my chit chats with him.when i repeated it for the fourth sunday,he stared and told,''what is the point in telling you my name?you will forget again.so,i'm not going to tell you now''.no chocolates could lure him and anu lost all her self respect in front of a five year old!rightly said,''the child is the father of the man!'':)

but later i thought,the little one also has his self respect!

when i go out ,i meet my school mates and college friends.they recognise me,and will tell,''hey,anu,you've put on weight;but your smile is the same.could you recognise me?''and MY GOD!the last question i want to hear.i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.i want to tell them how can i forget our funfilled days!but,no,names won't come to the tip of my tongue!anu is smart,''why not?how can i forget our break times and sharing lunch, cracking jokes!''''oh,please,someone is calling me,i will see you next time''!next time new tricks!sorry,friends!

i recall one incident!i was the college arts club secretary of little flower collegeand for a function i could invite two poets!can you believe,on the stage in front of the dignitaries,i addressed them wrongly by wrong initials and identities as both were ramakrishnans!My God!insulting the chief guest and guest of honour!again,with an apology,i escaped the embarassment!

friends,if i don't remember your name,or call you by wrong names,excuse me[i've taken anticiaptory bail].but i will never call you by names as some are fond of!

i was a very good student and i loved maths!i love solving puzzles and riddles!but,anu and numbers,never get along!you may be wondering why am i so mysterious!if i give you my basic details,the next question is for my mobile number!i don't know where my mobile will be!it's safe in a pouch and then in the handbag!i could never hear the ring tone!i'm not a mobile addict!i check the messages once in a blue moon,missed many important calls and lost the connections for ever!my mobile may be under the pillow,on the dining table or in the living room!and,i just don't know my number!someone smartly said,''no,problem;you don't remember;but give me a miss call.i will remember it for you.''but anu was smarter;''to give that miss call,where is my mobile now?''so,forget,yaar.''

when i ask someone for his/her number,i scribble it somewhere without the person's name and get confused whose number is that.so,anu asks the same question ten times and when she feeds the number in her mobile,she leaves a digit in between and struggles to reach the person,but of no use!when she told the problem to her colleague,he checked her mobile to his horror,he found out that most of the numbers were fed incorrectly-one digit less!anu must be awarded for her careless and carefree nature!

excuse her for not giving a call on time,not sending a sms,not giving a miss call.anu is simple and sincere.she remembers you while writing posts.each of your face is crystal clear in front of her!when the mobile is most needed,half the time will go in searching it!

i don't know my car number.numbers confuse me!before i leave trichur,i will learn nanda's car number.and if i try to reach out someone ,the wrong numbers will be typed and i land up with an unknown man!he asks me urdu and i reply english.people don't believe me i am forgetful or i can't remember the names and numbers!

i will never get a call from whom i long for and those sms in the morning sttopeed forever!everything else has aless charm.

so,i'm sure those who read my post will never ask me,''number please.............''anu is always out of range!

friends,

for the first time my red nokia is with me.i had received a sms three hours before and not yet replied!only in my train journey,i enjoy my mobile.

any suggestions?help me out of this mess!

after writing the post,i read out to amma and anu knows where to skip. with amma's blessings,each post is published!yes,the same way before writing an exam or before delivering a speech,i seek amma's blessings and shouts in excitement,''amma,this is my 60th post''.amma is cool.she replies,''do you want to increase only the number,not the quality''?

have a wonderful day!celebrate each moment of life!

i'm in a hurry to publish this,as my friend is leaving for chennai.he is areal source of inspiration!thank you my dear friend!

anu loves you all!

dear friend,far awy in the desrets,thanks alot for the cute little boy image!hey,he is so angry ,he may hit me if i ask his name again.i won't do it again!

sasneham,

anu