A COOL DREAM.......................,

BY THE SEA SHORE

30th july,2009

thursday1 p.m

dear friends,
here i'm back.. after the short break. hope things are fine with you.it's a sunny day.more fishermen are repairing their nets and getting ready for their early morning sailing.on the road they spread their nets and enjoy the teamwork.many boats are anchored in the sea.

whenever i see the small vanchi,i remember my childhood.we have kanolikanal near by and often we spend the evenings near water.one day achan rowed the vanchi and we children enjoyed the ride thoroughly!what admiration we had for achan!we felt so nice,safe n secure.still that scene is so clear infront of my eyes!

my sparrows are happier and they had brought a sms for me-''anu,you are a butterfly''.i smiled and really felt nice.i wanted to reply,''yes, a butterfly with a lost wing''.

here,wherever you go,you land up in the beach,the valley,the hills and the pubs.it was one evening when i set off myself to the nearby beach and spent some time with the calm waves.can you believe,just being with the nature,close to the water,enjoying the breeze,we change totally.the whole of peace is restored and the happiness spreads.i selected a deserted place as i didn't want to meet anyone and i settled down soon to watch the sunset.
that is the best time of self examination and introspection.there i could see,the laughter,the giggling of a lovely pair far away;but i could see and feel their pleasure.did they remind me of my lost life?did he remind me of soemone else?did i see myself in her?they were in their own world and i was with them!;D

It was a beautiful evening,
the blue sea was calm,
the sea birds were making lots of noise,
and i sat alone,hiding my gloomy heart.
suddenly i saw a lovely pair,
they were in their own world,
splashing water they walked ahead,
holding their hands tightly,
they were laughing n giggling,
sharing the sweet nothings.
so much of life i could feel,
while music was flowing from heart to heart,
i wanted to listen to the mighty waves,
but i was carried away with them,
slowly his hands were holding her,
and she leaned to him and walked,
the waves were kissing their feet,
sitting alone i was watching,
how the love blooms in the sea shore.
i knew,they were full of hopes,
and i did't want to tell them,
where there is light,must shadows be.
they were in their dreamworld,
nothing did they see behind or after them.
i recollected my joys n griefs,
how much i wanted to forget,
once again they took the life;
trust,never do that,friends,
never trust even your shadow.
the sun was going to set,
painting the waters orange n red,
gazing up to the sky,
the moon was smiling.
the wonderful couple whoever they were,
i wish them togetherness always.
as when you don't have anyone to look for,
in a crowd you become lonely.
dreams just they remained as dreams,
and at times the life is meaningless;
a few memories drawn from your life's spring,
it haunts me day n night.
the clouds started roaring above,
and it was going to rain,
i sat by the bank,disconsolate,alone,
and the showers started all of a sudden.
they were catching the rain water,
and they were throwing water on each other,
before,i left,i looked them again;
he was lifting her face with both his hands,
and hugging each other so tightly,

he planted a gentle kiss on her forehead,

caressing her idle trance,
forgetting the rain and thunder!
he must be telling her,
''i will not let you go....................''
and you know,the love line often told!
i hope n pray that girl won't lose her love!
and to sit n cry on the golden memories.
partings are always painful,

but friends,i must say,

it's better to part the ways,

than to live with a broken heart!
when it rains,tears flood from my eyes,
and my heart sinks like an uprooted tree!

it's anu signing off........................

love and only true love remains.adjustments make the peaceful life,but unconditional love gives one the happiness.promises,never give them if you know,they will be the lines drawn in water!all can't shut the door on their past. and they suffer from mental break down.and they struggle to relive their lives.

paying homage to the great actor...........RAJAN P.DEV,
let his soul rest in peace............................

anu loves you all................today's song is dedicated to two of my friends who just love this song,the rain and the picturisation.;D

Enthey kannanu karappu niram..........?[why Kannan is black in colour?]

E nthey Kannanithra karappu niram?

Kalindiyil kulichathinallo....................[is it because you have bathed in Kalindi?]

K aaliyane konnathinaloo....................?[or is it because you have killed Kaaliyan?]

and a bunch of sincere thanks to you,just because of whom this post is written!

Happy birthday to chettan whose grand day is tomorrow and the best celebrations N MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS to rajaneesh who celebrated his birthday,yesterday ........................;D A BIG GOD BLESS YOU!

wishing you a cool and beautiful evening,
sasneham,
anu

NAAGA PANCHAMI

RESPECTING THE SERPENTS..........................

26th july,2009,

3 p.m

Dear friends,

I was waiting for today.religiously an auspicious day,Naga Panchami.today was pambin kavil puja in our Naga temple too.on the same day,we offer one day's puja at Chemabalakulangara Devi Temple.our machil Bhagawathy is in this devi temple.preparations started days before for Naga pooja.and today is uthram,amma's star.since days nanda was running around arranging the pooja materials;i just can't imagine how she can do all these without any help.early morning nanda and amma with the helper drove down to Guruvayoour.our house is in a nearby village.like my little star, nanda drives so well.[i enjoy being with her when she is behind the steering wheel].after going to Devi Temple,praying and receiving prasadam they reached our house.it's so difficult when the house is closed for months and you have to open it and start right from cleaning.madhav and family also joined in the pooja.i satisfy myself with the detailed information from amma and nanda.these days it is very difficult to conduct these rituals.i'm so happy that amma could attend the poojas.you know friends,one friday years before when amma was sitting in sit out in the evening,one snake appeared near the steps;only then amma remembered,that evening amma had forgotten to light the lamp.we often see snakes and mongoose in our landed property.by evening,the cleaning will be done once again,and to lock our house and go back to trichur.i know,nanda,it's so tedious.you will be blessed and the peace prevails.pulluvan pattu was sung in hindu families these days.pulluvar perform nagakalm pattu pooja and we had conducted it in our Ayyappa Temple.that attracted many devotees.

after the Naag Pooja,it rained heavily.what a refreshing experience!i terribly missed the pooja and i can visulise what was happening.when the pooja goes on all of us chant the Naaga prayer written by Amma.

with thick trees,bountiful rains,muddy rivers,spectacular waterfalls,steep hills and the bridges connecting villages,it's an ideal place to live.but,i miss my home,the poojas,the rituals,my amma n my dear ones.i have taken a break from the hectic life style and i'm trying hard to relax and get rejuvenated. but we adjust lives in our second homes.but often,i live in a dreamworld,cherishing the childhood memories.each and every happening take life infront of me.

Naaga Panchami is celebrated on the fifth day of Shravan month.the festival is celebrated all over the country.it is one of the most important Hindu festivals celebrated on the fifth day of the first fortnight of the month of Shravan.mud idols of the snakes are worshipped on this auspicious day with offerings of leaves of Bel,Durva and Tulsi,Milk and puffed corn;before sunset, the same day the Naga idol is immersed.the festival dates back in time right to the pre-vedic period.idols of snakes were found at Mohenjodaro.the snake around Lord Shiva's neck and the seven-headed serpent that Lord Vishnu rests on are just two references to snakes in the Indian culture.Snakes which are usually feared,are also worshipped.fear of death through snakebite,especially during the rainy season could be a reason behind the origin of Naag Pooja.whatsover the reason,this day calls for their worship and no snake is to be harmed this day.and here,we have a wooden statue of a serpent,in our home.the carpenter has carved the shape so,well.

Ladies keep fasting the previous day.and early morning of Nag Panchami,they offer pooja,milk,flowers and layo to Nagas to protect their brothers by saying,''Dudh,layo chakh......Bhavak majya rakh....''[consume the milk and layo-puffed rice-and protect my brother]''.one of the highlights of the day is the preparation of the traditional sweet,'patolleo''.this is so delicious.a paste of rice flour is spread on a turmeric leaf,a mixture of coconut and jaggery is added to it and it is then steamed to perfection.this is our ada,what we prepare in vazhayila[plantain leaf].but today morning ,i tasted pateolleo the prasad from SHREE AYYAPPA T EMPLE.''wow''.what a unique smell of manjal ila[turmeric leaf]!you must give it a try.for the last so many days,i was seeing vegetable sellers selling bunches of turmeric leaves-Rs.10/ for twenty five leaves.

One particular belief is that snakes drink milk.this has led to the offering of milk to snakes on Naag Panchami.it's not right to offer milk to snakes as their system doesn't digest it well and it could even kill them.

Since ancient times,snakes have been protecting crops from rats and other pests.this festival signifies the gratitude of people towards snakes.snakes do have a role to play in the ecosystem.they have a right to life just as much as we do.just as we respect and worship them on Naag Panchami we should ideally do so throughout the year.Naag Panchami is an eco festival.Buddhists and Jains also perform thepooja.Even in countries like China and Japan people believe in the Snake God.people should realise the importance of snakes in nature and not kill them mercilessly.let's educate people on how to protect snakes.

Friends,please be the part and parcel of each and every festival of your state and the state where you live.i must tell you,it's amazing,exploring the roots,the stories behind each festival.and i love to interview local people to know their views and ways of celebrations.and this time i was interviewing mangala ,the local resident.i felt so nice when she invited me to her house.

It's anu signing off..................................

friends,i must express my sincere thanks and love to my friends abroad who were with me till this moment and their presence made a real difference.

anu wants to take a short break from mails,posts,chats and phone calls and i hope no questions will be asked.getting to know one's own soul and to be with one self is the need of the hour as the burning heart needs loneliness.

let's love the rain,the birds,the animals,the river,the sea and the universe.anu loves you all.

and today's dedication is my amma's favourite song-anu also loves this song.....................and for the next days,anu will be with her Kannan................

Ambhalapuzhe unnikannanodu nee

Enthu paribhavam melleyothi vannuvo?

Kalvilakkukal pathi minni nilkkave...................

Enthu nalkuvan enee kaathu ninnu nee..................[please enjoy the song praising UNNIKANNAN by watching the video given above].

wishing all of you friends, a beautiful evening...............................and i will get back to you after my short break............................

sasneham,

anu

A HOUSE OR A HOME?

WHICH IS YOURS?

24th july,Friday.

2009

5p.m

Dear friends,

It was raining in the morning;but now the sky is clear.the sea is calm.the waves are not rough.after the day's catch,the boats are anchored.

i'm on leave as i felt like relaxing;forgetting the hectic schedule and i must tell you,a monsoon break does wonders.i've enough time to sit in the balcony and enjoy the beautiful sea.i love the multicoloured reflections in the water when it's twilight.ships come n go.far away,at the other end,i can see the beautiful hill top,donapaula.

shravan mas started yesterday, on Muppettu thursday.this month is full of festivals.nanda went to guruvayoor early morning.she tries to catch up with prayers n rituals.great!and lot of personal sacrifices from her side too.nanda,you are really blessed.then she describes the daily happenings to me on phone or in chats.i feel with her experiences!then i don't miss anything.

the nature is at its best.clouds sail in the sky,springs,waterfalls,rivers overflow in abundance with loud roars.fields wear a fresh green look,bright n shining.and the rain birds sing so melodiously.my sparrows love me more now;they started sitting on bedroom window panes too,building nests.when i lie down in my bed,looking at the swaying coconut leaves,n the waves of the sea,when the rain water splashes on my cheeks,they whisper-''we love you,anu.''that's enough,more than enough,anu's day is made.

the other day, i received a phone call from my colleague.he wanted me to explain the difference between a house and a home.this is my favourite question to many to make them confused;most of the people didn't think about the difference!and when my explanation went on till i was satisfied[he must have been satisfied long before],i decided to write a post on it.

my problem is,my short answers become long answers n my long answers become essays.often from school,i get the remarks in my answer sheets,''exceeds the word limit''.hey,how can i stop till i'm satisfied?you read whatever you want n let me write how much i want.agreed?you know what,one of my close friends,hardly read my posts fully but i'm grateful to him.he tells me he scans n reads. it's okey.unnecesary questions will not be asked.i know my posts are longer,but i can't help it.[hey,but i tell you,you will miss me n my posts when i disappear........you will miss anu's heart beats..............]

remembering my happy and cheerful childhood in my ancestoral house where we lived in a nalukettu as a joint family,where life had more clours n laughter filled the surroundings,i wrote this post.the more the merrier!we were taught to share and we felt happier!luxuries were less;but what comforts we had meant luxuries to us!the huge pambin kavu,teh small pambin kavu,the kalari,the prayers,the pujas built the strong beliefs in our minds.we had vast compound to play,two kulams[ponds]to take bath,deep kalkinar[well] to drink water.we enjoyed the cucumbers in the fields,the long payar[beans] in the landed property,the cows to give milks,the hens that gave eggs,the oxen that ploughed the fields,so many heplers to take care of us!ammamma,achan,amma,valiyamma,cheriyamma n so many cousins,n my siblings,what a wonderful childhood to hold close to my heart!that is the home,real home i would like to call !

dogs have kennels,cows have cowsheds,

we do build houses with raw materials.

a house protects us ,

from rain,sun ,storm n thieves.

the bigger the size, happier we are.

money is lavishly spent to furnish it,

comforts are purchased taking loans;

or selling ornaments;

but we want to make it wonderful,

in whatever way,we can.

the ultimate aim is to make it a dream house.

the savings of years is spent;

without second thoughts,

my house should be bigger,

than my neighbour's house!

and by the end of the construction,

many end their lives,

as the debts could not be repaid.

many of half built houes,

had to be sold with no balance left!

think it over,friends,

why should we do this?

we need a shelter blends with nature.

not a castle wasting the money.

now tell me dearies,

how many houses are real homes?

the love,the care and the unity,

among the members,

transform the house to a home.

spend time together however less it may be;

the get togethers at dining table is a must;

the prayer time is really precious,

bonding the love stronger.

festivals n celebrations are the occasions,

that bring us closer forever,

this can be the best home,

where we unwind,relax and enjoy.

the laughter,cheer and tears are shared,

where the various flowers bloom in the garden,

inviting the butterflies to flutter by,

and the birds build their nests on the trees.

away from the vices,come back,dearies,

your paradise is here in this earth!

it's anu signing off...............................

the month of Shravan is filled with religious fervour and love for Mother Nature.there is a general feeling of happiness,well being and devotion.we can go back to the strong values that always prevailed in most of our houses and still in few houses.love,care,kindness,soft feelings,deep concern for each other should be the raw materials that change a house to a home.and the name plate on the outer wall of each house will be-HOME,MY SWEET HOME.what a nice feeling!what a welcome !don't you agree with me?money can't buy this happiness;but our attitude can!

by whatever small ways we can adopt to spread cheer n smile,we must,i strongly believe!

an enviornment filled with peace n harmony.and it can be passed on to successive generations.

Amma's laughter,cries n sacrifices turn many houses to homes!to all those Ammas,i dedicate today's song..........anu loves and cares for you.

Amma mazha karinu kan niranju.................................

it's a cool evening.happy week end to all of you.anu loves you all.

sasneham,

anu

LOK KYA KAHENGEY..........................?

SHOULD I BOTHER?

22nd,july,2009.

Wednesday

7p.m

Dear friends,

Good evening.after the much discussed solar eclipse,the daily routine started late.good,few more hours for extra sleep,and i loveto sleep in the early hours of the morning.there is no rain today,and the moment,the showers stop,one feels hot.

Every day can't be cheerful,bright n happy.it happens often.for no reasons we feel low.you want to run away from people.you want to be in your cocoon.

Often,right from childhood we have confronted with the question,lok kya kahenge?born n brought up in an ancestoral tharavadu,atleast thousands of times i was reminded about my reputation in the society,the image people have about me and the values by which i must live.we were told what dress suit us,how to walk without making noise and to laugh silently!i don't know why,i always liked to question certain things,may be the injustice practised,the strict discipline to be followed by the fairer sex in the society,etc''.good girls keep away from boys;don't mingle much.you must be disciplined.speak in a soft voice;obey elders.don't shout.don't question elders.''hundred n one dos n don'ts.i'mnot blaming.elders know what is better for us;and they are really concerned.but when we grow as teens,the urge to question arises!then we are labelled as the rebels.at times,i was fed up of the pretensions.i wanted to be transparent,the out spoken and the straight forward.at least through posts,i thought i could write what my heart says .again often i was reminded,''lok kya kahenge?''

it really hurts me.and if i am frank,it may hurt others.that anu can never do.i have no plans of making any big move.i like to respect the feelings n emotions of others.but i have self respect too.i believe in my identity.i don't like others hurt my sentiments.it's very disturbing.then i spend my lonely hours in my balcony enjoying the waves of the sea.i can communicate very well with the rising waves.i admire the beauty of the green hills on both the sides!that's the way to cheer up!

I hear i don't please you,

Iwill not,let me have my own ways;

wherever you walk,in this stormy night,

i will be following you,

but i will be invisible.

i want to live my life the way i want,

but never once i did or tried;

and if at all i took one step;

hundreds of problems arose before me;

in your tears n in your laughter,

deep at nights n during days,

i spent my time with you;

but you took me for granted.

i sacrificed my joys;

they were not appealing to you,

i wanted to sing loudly,

you never allowed to raise my voice;

i was taught what to talk,

as they were music to your ears;

and what i wanted to tell,

got chocked in my throat.

in the blank desert of the night,

my soul has lost its guiding light.

you gave me the dreams ,

and asked me to dream,

my own dreams,where are they?

i know,life won't be the same anymore,

i had prepared myself for the same.

along the stubbled fields of paddy,

scenting the jungle's breath washed by the rain,

through the moist grass,

splashing water sideways,

let me walk the slippery path,

i enjoy my loneliness ,now.

but once for all,i may ask you,

leave me alone on my way.....

you can never hear me in silence,

rushing towards the pleasures of life,

you won't get time

to look back at me just once,

and you often forget,

you loved me once ,so dearly.

once more,i tune the strings,

of my sitar,my song once more i sing.

my last gift i offer you,

and a BIG GOD BLESS YOU!

it's anu signing off........................

updating a local event,

on the day of the 'aitar pujan',the women consider the sundays auspicious to worship the Sun God.the women who will perform this puja wake up early in the morning and go to collect various types of leaves needed in the puja from the nearby forest after bathing.they will have only one meal that day.at the place of the worship,a 'kalash'[pot] filled with fresh water is placed.a coconut surrounded by mango leaves is placed on the 'kalash'.attractive rangoli designs are made around the 'kalash'. then the puja starts.Almost all the days of the days of this month are auspicious and most of the hindus go vegetarian for the entire duration of the month.

before,i conclude,i really feel i must express my sincere feelings for my good friend.

dear my friend,i must thank you for these lovely images and today for being with me to cheer me up and make me smile;D and i do believe,you have this magical wand of sincerity in your friendship.and today,i felt it more.hey,you proved,''a friend in need is your friend indeed.''

and the dedication is.....................

chembakame..............................chembakame............................

it's raining..................wishing you a cool night.............anu loves all of you.

sasneham,

anu

THE BLESSED SOULS................

REFLECTIONS OF A SIMPLE SOUL............

WILL YOU JOIN ME?

20th july,2009

Monday,

11.30a.m

Dear friends,

Good morning!

Karkidakam is in full swing and in most of the houses,ramayana reading is going on.i'm really happy that my religious post is well received by my friends and we are still looking forward to value based life!it's a good sign.however modern we may be,the traditions n culture of our childhood do take roots strongly.

This is such a month where nature goes furious with heavy rains,wild breeze and storm.mind is not calm n stress is more.it is said that meditation creates a state of metabolic restfulness far deeper than that of sleep.lucky are those who meditate daily as it heals them from fatigue,stress n tension.meditation deals with forgetting everything for that moment and concentrating on knowing one's inner self.

I know, most of us feel low without any reasons,feeling desperate if promises are not fulfilled.just to cheer you up,i thought of sharing a forwarded mail with you.i have a good collection of thoughts n prayers,and i must tell you,i try to share them with friends.so,why not with you?we want friends to listen to us and we hardly listen!so,start talking to yourself,it's the only way to make sure someone is listening................here's the wonderful thought provoking mail i received........given a chance,in my next anchoring,i would like to recite this, with the right voice modulation and reaching the lines straight to your heart!

I asked God to take away my habit.

God said,No.

It is not for me to take away,but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.

God said,No.

His spirit is whole,his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.

God said,No.

Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;

It's not granted,it's learned.

Iasked God to give me happiness.

God said,No.Igive you blessings;

I asked God to spare me pain.

God said,No.

Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.

God said,No.

You must grow on your own,

But i will prune you to make you fruitful!

I asked God for all things that might enjoy life;

God said ,No.

I will give you life,so thatyou may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me Love others,

as much as HE loves me.

God said.............................................Ahhhhhhhhhh.........

Finally you have the idea.

I hope,all of you liked the lines and let's learn and start loving others.......................

It's anu signing off..........................

At times, for no reason,when you forget to smile,you like to be lonely,you like to argue with others,you like to snatch away the peace of mind and you want to cause others tears,

pleeeeeease,remember,GOD LOVES YOU!and you are blessed with a life full of high spirits!and you are ALIVE!BE GRATEFUL!

with tears flowing like the showers of karkidakam,

Let me remind you,tomorrow is KARKIDAKA VAVU,the no moon day.we pay homage to our beloved ones who became dearer to GOD.we,who are still alive,must take time to pay homage to the divine souls.when thousands of devotees do the rituals on the banks of nila nadi and aluvapuzha and in many other river banks and in houses,anu joins them mentally.nanda will be attending the rituals at Mazhuvanchery Mahadeva temple,on the way to Guruvayoor,under the guidance of the popular spiritual scholar,Dr.N.Gopalakrishnan.noone takes rice at night.evening sadya will be prepared at homes.frends,i tell you,observing the rituals make our lives meaningful.those who come to trichur,make it possible to have darshan at Mahadeva Temple.

when you feel like a proud peacock,think that each moment is a bonus from God All mighty.and i have started learning,pride goes before a fall.and my message for you to hold close to your heart forever, as long as you love anu is,BE BLESSED AND BE A BLESSING TO ALL!Rama Rajya will be easily prevailed.:D

updating the events,the solar eclipse is on 22nd,july.the moon will cover the sun.the Karkidaka vavu will remain till 22nd morning.eclipse starts from 5.28a.m.in all temples,poojas will start only from 8 a.m.eclipse will occur at the time of sun rise!it happens only on amavasya day!eclipse is visible to the maximum extent at 6.20a.m.hope all of you will take care!so many happenings in the month of july...............

Anu loves you all...................................

And the dedication is...................

Prem mudidth man se kaho,Sree Rama Rama ,Ram..........................

Sree Ram,Ram,Ram...............................

Wishing you days of prayers,

Sasneham,

Anu

SEEKING BLESSINGS OF GODDESS LAKSHMI.............

IN THIS HOLY MONTH OF RAMAYANA...

16th july,2009,
thursday
8.30p.m



Dear friends,
Good evening.today is karkidaka sankranthi.the holi month of karkidakam,Ramayan month begins from tomorrow.heavy rains and stormy nights changes the whole atmosphere.nanda went to our ancestoral house today to get it cleaned and lighted lamp in our Naga Raja temple and kalari.she is lucky to have darshan of Guruvayoorappan and Bhagavathi of Kaveedu temple.this is one of the one hundred and eight devi temples of kerala.now this temple is under the management of Guruvayoour Devaswom and the gokulam is shifted to the vast compounds.it is really nice to see the cows of Shree Guruvayoorappan in the long sheds.and these cows are offered by the ardent devotees.our machil bhagavathy is in Chembalankulangara Bhagavathy Temple.
let me recollect my childhood days rich in traditions n culture.on karkidaka sankranthi,in the evenings,our helper ammu[she is no more] used to clean the house and take the waste and take round of our house.we children shout loudly that'' Chetta bhagavathy,go out, and Lakshmi devi come in....'' and run after her taking sticks in our hands.we were sending the Chetta Bhagavathy far away.she used to go to the stream near by and put the waste in the water.water will be sprinkled in the rooms and we wait anxiouly for the arrival of Goddess Lakshmi.the whole nalukettu was ready.what a nice way to believe, Goddess Lakshmi will visit only the clean and decorated houses!we were always taught when we wash our feet,the back side of our ankles should be thoroughly washed,orelse Chetta Bhagavathy will enter on our body!and my God!even now, i get scared and check so many times whether i have washed my feet properly.in our tharavadu water will be kept in big kuttakam[a huge vessel] and kindi[instead of mugs]will be kept by the side.those who enter the house will wash the feet first.



The huge compound of our ancestoral house was full of different plants n trees. the pambin kavu[the jungle-abode of Nagas] took the major share of the compound and there was a small pambin kavu called as mundian thara.the whole karkidaka month we offer the yellow wicks[wicks dipped in turmeric powder mixed with water],to the snakes.i still remember,we were so scared to go inside the pambinkavu;it was so dark.i used to feel, the snakes would come from any corner.and i must tell you,we are really scared of snakes!so we pray whole heartedly and enter pambinkavu!once a year thirumeni[priest] will come to do the grand pooja for nagas.[Aayilya pooja].we chant the special prayer for nagas written by amma.



We pluck dashapushpam and keep them in plantain leaf for Devi in the poojaroom.mukkutti,thiruthali,nilappana,krishna kranthi,kayyunni,ppovamkurunthala,cheroola,uzhinja,karuka and muyalchevi make dashapushpam.even in the heavy rains,we used to get up early and walk ten minutes to reach kulam[tank]and take a dip in cool water!''wow'' the whole body would shiver but i must admit, it was so refreshing and one becomes so energetic after having bath in cold water!and in the mornings after having an early bath in our trdaitional kulam,we light the lamp and after putting bhasmam and chandanam,make chanthu pottu out of mukkutti leaves.and we apply the thick paste as bindi on our forehead,even now i can enjoy that smell!hey,those who have not tried out till now,please make this chanthu pottu out of mukkutty leaves n you will love it.applying kanmashi is a must.[and i always insist for namboothiri's kanmashi n it's not available now].muthassi used to make kanmashi at home.i miss all these traditions these days.girls take an oil bath on tuesdays and fridays and boys take oil bath on wednesdays and saturdays.even now i follow that ritual.
ashtamangyala set is a symbol of prosperity and for any auspicious occasion the ashtamangyala set is a must!you can see,how beautifully this is kept in the photo above![i have taken this photo;D].
!amma,i still don't know how did you manage the time,with rituals,and prayers and your time demanding profession of teaching!amma n achan always had time for us,the five children and without complaints,so beautifully you have fulfilled your duties!we always used to get up to the wonderful atmosphere of tharavadu where amma n achan would be chanting the prayers loudly.and after the hectic schedule amma used to walk the long distance to Sree Krishna High School,Mammiyoor!amma,we are the blessed children!and achan will be very happy admiring your ways,of being with us supporting us and still instilling confidence!amma,anu would have been a big zero without your constant advices and blessings!and let me rest my head on your lap,and cry my heart out for any time the storm will rise in her mind again as karkidakam is going to begin!amma,i don't know how i will spend these dark long nights and i need to be with you!and to maintain he mental balance,i depend on my creative writing a lot!

Tomorrow is muppettu friday and it is a must to put mylanchi[mehandi].nanda will put mylanchi and i can only join her happiness.maza n my little star used to enjoy all these traditions.this time Ramayana month begins on muppettu friday and in all hindu families ramayan will be read loudly.we are not supposed to read Ramayanam in the evenings as we will be disturbing Hanumanji.it is the sandhya vandanam time of Hanumanji.here in Ayyappa temple ashtadravya ganapathy homam begins tomorrow morning and ashta dala bhagaval seva in the evenings after deeparadhana. we have Shree Rama Mandir,Kali Mandir and a church in the premises of Shree Ayyappa Temple.
Maha ganapathy homam and gajaraja pooja and aanayootu will be conducted in Vadakkunathan temple in trichur.nanda willbe having darshan of Shree Vadakkumnathan and she has offered Aanayootu.devotees rush to the premises to watch the wonderful sight of worshipping so many elephants standing in a line and offering them the special feast!what a nice way to love and show that we do take care of the animals!and i must tell you,all the elephants [nearly seventy]of Lord Guruvayoorappan will be offered special ayurveda treatment in this Karkidaka month.as per the instructions of the doctors[vet],the special menu will be decided for each elephant.

In this hectic life of present days, we struggle to follow the traditions specially the pravasis.still,chanels try to reach us through different religious programmes and blogegrs like ramesh sadashivam and arun bring awareness on Ramayanam through their posts.and it is really an interesting news,you must have watched.Baby samuel of chnganassery recites Ramayanam daily in this holi month for the last so many years.so,nice to watch him on the television screen, reading the holi granth in the traditional way!friends,irrespective of caste we can always adopt the best from all other religions.he looks so pious and simple!such personalities attract me a lot!

friends,having the rare chance of visiting the four temples of Sree Rama,Lakshmana,Bharatha and Shatrughna on the same day is considered as equivalent of reading the whole Ramayanam once.purifying our bodies and mind we are preparing ourselves to welcome the new year.many devotees really make it possible.
I know all of you will be busy to go to bed early tonight as you have to get up early.
It's Anu signing off...

And let's chant the prayer deep from our heart,

"Rama,rama ,rama , rama,rama,rama ,pahimam...
Rama padam cherane,mukunda rama pahimam...."


Anu prays for all of you...........two of my friends are leaving for kerala tomorrow and i wish them a very happy and safe journey.enjoy the karkidakam rains but please take care.enjoy being with your dear n near ones,but please continue blogging.i will be anxiouly waiting for your posts along with other readers.thanks a lot my dearest dost,for choosing the beautiful image of Goddess Lakshmi,for me.that was a real kind gesture from you.[and your selections are always better!;D]
my friends,i will be taking a break to enjoy the monsoon magic,not from you,but from my work.i'm waiting for that very badly to forget the office and spend the whole time in a different way!

Wishing one and all a holi and an aupicious Ramayan month,
Sasneham,
Anu

WHERE HAVE YOU GONE?

STILL WAITING FOR YOU...
13th,july,2009,
Monday,
7p.m



Dear friends,

Good evening.heart felt thanks to all as most of you enjoyed my last post.and only when maza reminded me i realised,i had not included my bindi collection in that.yesterday,i went to Ayyappa temple,and it was due for long.the divine atmosphere,the idakka vadyam, and the well decorated idols were all enchanting.i felt nice.navagraha pooja was going on.most of the devotees don't miss the darshan of Ayyappa Swami on saturdays.we reagain peace of mind after our visit,to this holy temple.

My submission was today and it is over now.i have carried work home today n i may have to sit late night.but,now when the loneliness creeps in,i feel like writing this post.it's inevitable.so,i may have to struggle tonight finding that extra time at the cost of personal sacrifices.



In my childhood,i first saw pigeons on the roof top of the three storyed bunglaw-kamalalayam,at andathode,in my achan's house.there were many of them staying safely enjoying the vast space on the roof top of third floor.and i started liking their,''kur.............kur'' sound.the house overlooks into the paddy fields and small ponds were in between.i just love to be there for a stroll in the evening enjoying the clear sky,walking amidst the green fields,enjoying the cool breeze and often splashing the water in the ponds.and you must see,the ducks in the water!and for the first time we saw ducks ,in the fields..............and the nature has lavishly blessed andathode,madhavikutty's neighbourhood.



Here in my kitchen window,outside the net,sparrows always built their nests.they collected the straw,the rugs,the cloth pieces and all other waste materials and lived happily in their shelter.they were many and when i work in the kitchen ,their chirping was music to my ears.i always talked to them,shared my feelings and anxieties and they responded by the peculiar sounds.it was an understanding and we communicated very well.

Daily morning before leaving for work,i open the back door and there on the roof top,these sparrows,pigeons,crows and kittens will be waiting for me!i feed the with cereals,bread crumps and chappati pieces.sparrows and pigeons are happy with cereals,crows prefer pieces of chappati and kitten love rice soaked with curds.and my day is made very sincerely.

During my absence in summer,the helper,yellappa cleaned the windows and the nest was thrown away.the moment, i stepped in, i felt some emptiness ,the pin drop silence in my kitchen!i knew,my sparrows had left me!even the pigeons have disappeared.did they leave me forever?the kittens have grown into cats!i feel sad looking at the crows,drenched in rain!hardly they come to the roof!the pain of separation was unbearable!and today when the loneliness was intense,i decided to write this post.and you all know,it's always raining in my heart.



All are busy with hundreds of tasks,
Only you,my dear pets,
From the nests on my window pane,
Sang your tunes to me.
But,where are you now?
I have to share a lot of things new,
Come and listen n console me,
He's getting ready to leave,
And i know,he will never be back!
Will the music stop forever?
The sea is rough on the other side,
The waves are really fearful,
The boats are shaken very badly,
The nights are long n cool,
And it's pouring very badly.
Within the heart Anu is all alone,
I shall take leave from all other tasks,
And I'll make your nest and wait for u,
I have to walk the life's thorny path alone,
Silently n with a heavy heart,
I stand alone in the deserted road,
With the pent-up tears,
My sparrows,come back to me!
And where are the pigeons gone?
You've aroused the life long thirst to love,
And now you can't just go away.
Here,iam at the back doors,
Looking at the terrace for you,
Why did you leave me n go?
I just can't bear this loneliness any more...
Bonds cause always tears,
Still we are always bonded,
But the rest of the life,
I want to smile n see the smiling faces,
Not the tears any more! this stormy night,when the sighs are deep,
I have lost my sleep,
Come back to me,my dear friends,
Anu is waiting for you!
And i miss my butterflies,
And the humming bees,
Where are my jasmine plants,
And the cute little birds,that coo to me!
I had to leave them in trichur n come!
What a rain!so cool!and the melodies are in the air...

Anu is signing off...

Friends,let's love nature,the birds and the animals in our surroundings.once a day,let's feed them.and i must tell you,the satisfaction that we derive can't be replaced by any wealth.my achamma always used to feed the crows before having lunch and i strongly believe,the values are carried on ...

I am obliged to my friends for making this post possible by creating the right mood,and by the loving words which brought tears to my eyes and the cool images!

And today's dedication of song is...

Manjakiliude moolippattunde...
Manassil marikavidi chinthum chinthunde...

Wishing you good luck and sweet dreams,
Sasneham,
Anu

ANU'S COLLECTIONS

STILL COLLECTING...
11th July 2009,

Dear friends,
Good morning!since long I was waiting for this day,second Saturday,the luxurious just one day extra holiday that I enjoy once a month.the sea is rough today.new ships have been anchored in the harbour. The fisher folks are returning after a good catch n it's so nice watching the boats sailing in water. I just feel like sitting amongst them touching the water with my hands,getting wet in rains and the boat getting shaken to both the sides...................what a wonderful experience.........and if the boat turns upside down,no problems,still Anu will enjoy swimming in cool water.

I have a submission on Monday,13th,july.but I can manage,it can be finished.so,i decided to have a chit chat with you,when the day began with heavy showers.

Like all children,Anu had dreams n aspirations,joys n sorrows,doubts n questions.like every one she had turning points in her life which set her towards the present carrer. I always want to grow up professionally and leave a mark in the respective field.and I know as Amma says, only through determination n perseverance, I can excel and that is possible for anyone to scale great heights.apart from this Anu has some interesting[may not be for you] hobbies,which she would like to share with you.and there is still a child in each one of us who craves for the things we love right from the innocent day,of childhood days.

Right from the childhood,
Marbles always attracted me,
I enjoyed boys playing marbles,
Making pits in the sand,
It was testing the aim,
Who could throw the marbles,
Into the sand pits.
Marbles are of different colours,
And I started collecting them,
Keeping in the glass jars,
To enjoy the beaut very often.
When I used to get bored,
I used to play with them alone.



The umbrellas are my weakness,
The multi coloured to the plain,
I just get stuck with the design,
And the collections are many,
And the latest add is the yellow one,
Proudly I open it and walk around,
It's Nanda's gift for me,
From the middle east.
I always love to be a sales girl,
In an umbrella shop,
And I love listening to the jingles,
On the different brands.


As you all know very well,
The glass bangles are any girl's weakness.
Different coloured and in different shapes,
And they always adorn Anu's hands.
And I used to wait for the temple festivals
To buy them in dozens on both the hands,
And the secret of my Guruvayoor visits are
The shopping at the various stalls,


Attracting the devotees with all stuff.
My craze for the transparent pen pouches,
May be something new for you,
The only 'must -buy' thing from abroad
Are the transparent pouches,
My proud possessions
And with the excitement of,
School students, I keep my things
And my colleagues always exclaim,
How pretty are they.

The branded pens come along,
And the colour of ink changes,
For different people at different level,
Hardly I come across the pens,
of my choice,but mostly,
They are the imported ones.


And my first glance is on the wrist,
The watches steal my attention
And I have a good collection of them,
In different shapes n colours,
And still I fondly remember
The pendent watch,
Gifted by Nanda,
Still,I'm collecting the new ones,
And Maza's is the late
The strap is steel n looks cool.



You can't imagine Anu without books,
My trunks are full with the books,
From school days to present day,
From Gokulam to serious fictions,
From spiritual to religious themes,
From psychology to philosophy,
Holding on to books even while walking,
My books are scattered in the bed.
And they are my best friends,


Always I love to keep.
The petals of the withered flowers,
They will be inside my books,
And I enjoy the fragrance very often,
And I cherish the moments n persons,
That I keep them close to my heart.

And now I fear,this post of mine is getting longer,and I'm sure there is a frown on my friend's face.but,take time to read or you will miss my wish list. Wherever I settle down in life,these trunks of my personal collections will be my asset.

It's Anu signing off...

The rain has stopped now.the sun is bright. I am waiting to see a rainbow.since long I haven't seen one. Please remember Justin in your prayers,as he is participating in marathon race n the event is on 18th. he is in Tibet now.good luck,Justin and a BIG GOD BLESS YOU!

Have a fun filled weekend and enjoy!not even by a word or look,we should not hurt someone. I hope the message is conveyed.and now I have to hurry up. I have an appointment which is important.


The song to be dedicated for the day is...

Lehroo ki awaz bhala kehti ki kya?
Kabhi un mein jakar simat kar to dekho....


Anu loves you all..
sasneham,
Anu

SHOWERS OF JOY

THE WAIT WAS WORTH...................

08.07.2009

wednesday,

10p.m

Dear friends,

hope all you keep fit.i was caught up between submissions and exam.imagine,getting a circular to prepare for one hour test of hundred marks and the portion given was of two hundred pages to be downloaded and studied.you tell me,was that fair?no,not at all.still,anu didn't want to give up!the real competition spirit was aroused and within two days the main chapters were discussed with my friend,smita[from payyanoor] on phone.a sort of combined study and i felt really nice.and,friends,i was the first one to finish the paper and i believe the evaluation is going on.if we fall into the category of under score,we will be sent to the city of sandlewood for updating ourselves.

i was supposed to write a post yesterday on GURU PURNIMA,but was tired.sorry,amma n nanda,i was sick.and today,i am in no mood to write about gurus as i received a forward mail full of enchanting images of rain .and you know,how rain influences my mood.

was a rainy day and every day it rains heavily.and these showers and images,made me write this post.

The cool showers pouring down,

the moist atmosphere,

the wet flowers,the shining leaves,

the roaring clouds,

what an awesome sight!

the mask was removed,

the true self was discovered,

her life is being shaped,

all its joys n sorrows,

the gains n losses,

are being taken care of,

by someone far away.....................

now the flowers fall up on her,

like the soft touch of her friend.

when the night is deep,

and the world falls into silence,

he is awake with a song in his heart,

to watch her closely.

her forgotten happy days,

were recalled now,

she doesn't bother to analyse,

what's right or wrong,

as she knows,she doesn't have,

miles to go before she sleeps.

she has been called,

to the joy -feast of this earth,

is it temporary?

''no',her mind whispers.

will the showers stop?

not on her love filled mind.

she was unaware ,

what made him burn,

he laughed but cried inside,

but still he stood by her.

from the sea of darkness,

from the depths of sorrows,

why did he pull her out?

she awaits for an answer.

in the cool evenings,

on a lovely road,

as darkness gathers around,

when her soul had lost,

the guiding light,

he reached her spreading joy,

and how can she let him go?

he had confidence in his beliefs,

he wanted her to see,

the brighter side of life,

he has a solution for her problems.

with choking voice, but full of love,

he often said,''i don't want to let you go''.

that was real heart breaking note,

from the depth of his heart.

let her build a world of dreams,

and he has given her dreams,

she has spring in her feet now,

and she sings the songs with him.

her soul has woken now,

and her world is full of joy!

with laughter spread,

soft music flows,

guitar is played,

she can hear his words,

even without words.

so much of life she has now!

when it's pouring out side,

let her sleep well,

dreaming a rosy future!

and she is guarded well!

it's anu signing off...................

the song for the night is,

kattile mynahaye pattu padippichatharu...................?

[who taught the song to the mynah of the forest?]

some one enjoys taking snaps when it rains and the sound of the rain drops bring back the mynah to his mind...................

to him,who is so calm and composed,

who meditates to gain peace of mind,

who reminds anu,blog is not life,

to that friend of mine,

this post on rain is dedicated.

but anu tells him,she gives life to her posts and her heart beats are faster,when the posts are written.and her approach to each post is so honest and sincere.

anu loves one and all................

and the song dedication is...........

itna main chahoo tujhe.............,

koyi kisi ko na chaha.....................

good night and sweet dreams!

sasneham,

anu

10.30p.m

KANNAN,MY SOUL MATE...............................

TO HAVE THE DIVINE DARSHAN..............

02.07.09

JULY,2009,

8p.m

Dear friends,

today, i'm going to write about my kannan,my soul mate,the omnipotent,the omnipresent, the all prevailing source of inspiration !i can imagine the devotees standing in the queue in guruvayoor temple and most of them have pattu konakam and kadali pazham in plaintain leaves to offer kannan.as nanda is in trichur,she went to thiruvambadi temple,the famous krishna temple,early in the morning.........i am so happy,kishen,you could make unnikannan and yesodha as my blog template.my friend in chennai once asked me to send him a few images of krishnan and thus we reached this beautiful image.early morning,so religiously i reach my site and so fondly look at my unnikannan.i can always share my true feelings,the happenings with gokula krishnan.i feel like carrying this young kanha and hold him to my chest.my motherly feelings arouse spontaneously and my eyes become moist.............we live in the neighbourhood of gurupavanapuri and on all auspicious days we reach the divine presence!right from childhood,we used to wake up to the prayers of our parents...........''Om namo bhagavathe vasudevaya''.............each and every breath,achan used to chant this sacred prayer.............most of amma's poems are written on spiritual themes and amma gives tunes to the devotional songs and sings so sweetly...........always satsangam was held in our home and nanda n unniyettan inspired everyone.little star and maza sang the bhajans whole heartedly and the positive energy was spread in the air........where are those golden days now?i still cherish the bhagavatham stories narrated by achamma at bed time.i can retell them even now with the same intensity.it was achan's dream that madhav should serve the needy n devotees of kannan so,he joined kannan's hospital to fulfill achan's dream.anu spent the first part of life in such a devotional atmosphere and as a pravasi too,the strong beliefs cnontinue...........

most of the devotees sing the prayer,

kani kanum neram kamala nethrante...

niramerun manja thukil charthi...............'',in the morning.

Today is thursday,

Lord Kishna's day,

devotees from near and far,

reach Krishna temples,

i miss my temple visits here,

but i have idols n images,

of different gods n goddesses,

i chat and talk and pray to kannan,

i share my anxieties n tensions,

i thank kanha for my blessings,

i cry out my heart often to him,

only in His divine presence, i find solace,

kannan,keep me away from the vices,

help me love all and hate none.

teach me to forgive those who hurt me,

and let me control my anger,

help me get up n walk again,

give me strength to forget the past,

let me live in the present,

often, my steps tremble n stumble,

kannan,my soulmate,be with me,

i know when i don't see you,

you are carrying me,

i still don't know why ,things happened this way?

don't give me an answer till i reach you.........

they say,you take care of me,

i want to feel that peacock feather touch,

i'm then convinced of your love,

your care and presence.

in my ,loneliness,i lose the confidence,

kanna,i surrender,surrender in your lotus feet,

for once ,just once,embrace me!

each n every moment anu needs to be with you,

as she knows only you will be with her,

till her last breath......

i'm sorry kanha,i didn't write about you,

in such a deatiled manner,

may be i knew i will break down,

and these days,that's happening often!

it's anu signing off.......................

friends,those who have not visited guruvayoor temple so far,please do have darshan of unnikannan................you will feel the change........

seeking blessings of SHRI GURUVAYOORAPPAN,from the land of kalabham and palpayasam,venna n kadali pazham,anu prays

for a peaceful,happy n healthy life to all.

this post is for my soul mate,Kannan and i know many will be happy reading this,like my amma n family,my blog guru,my blog friends who are krishna devotees.

sasneham,

anu

HAPPY DOCTOR'S DAY.....................

CONGRATULATIONS N CELEBRATIONS.......................

1st july,2009,

wednesday.

8.30 pm

dear friends,

it's a rainy day.i forgot today is doctor's day!i was always the first one to remember the important dates and events,and feel sad i forgot this day!hence,i could not wish my dearest brother and sis-in-law in the morning but could greet by evening.to those who are new to my site,let me tell you,my youngest brother and sis-n law are doctors in gurupavanapuri.

madhav,you are the youngest,

and you reached the greater heights easily.

you are named after our beloved unnikannan.

you are really blessed,my brother,

and i love to hear you calling me chechie,

the brightest,the most intelligent,

i always complained,you are our parents' favourite!

how happy we were when you stood first in the panchayat,

and in maths you scored cent percent.

you are so popular,right from school days.

we cried when we left you in christ college,

for the first time you were away from us!,

and your professional course in calicut medical college,

kept you away from your dear ones.

you always made us proud,

with your excellent performance.

your p.g in davengare,

and after the result you reached me first,

amma n achan were so upset,

waiting for you,to see you.

the beloved uncle to nieces and nephews,

you were more than father and mother to them,

you could give them the best of the childhood,

the ride in your scooter,

and later in the car to temples n festivals,

you were ready to climb the mango trees,

and brought life and excitement

to their innocent childhood,

the most dutiful son,and doting parent,

the beloved doctor of the society,

you sacrificed your bright future,

to be with achan n amma,

as the rest of us were always away,

i respect ,love and care for you,

my heart is filled with gratitude,

Lord Krishna,you're kind and considerate,

you have chosen madhav to serve the needy,

and your devotees who come to have your darshan,

you hardly share your tensions,dear,

and often we take you for granted,

you always stood as the strong pillar ,

and we found her, for you,

from the same profession,

and so intelligent and nice,

now you're blessed with two loving kids.

you are so adventurous,

and how much you love travelling,

after along time you found time to be free,

and we had a wonderful time in chennai.

life is sailing smoothly,

and we are so happy,dear,

patients reach you from far away...........

they just need your presence,

and many of them say,

''doctor,we want you,

just to touch our child,

he/she becomes disease free''.

the untimely calls we make you,

to prescribe medicines for us,

and anu never likes to meet doctors,

she just wants her madhav on call.

the support you give us,

achan and little star,

and all of us wish both of you,

HAPPY DOCTOR'S DAY!

MAY GOD BLESS YOU LONG N HAPPY LIFE,

AS YOU HAVE TO BRING MORE SMILES ON OTHERS......

this post is my dedication,to you,my dearest bron your sweet heart and

and all others belonging to this noble profession.........

it's anu signing off...................

celebrations are going on by IMA and senior doctors will be felicitated.
let me take this opportunity to wish one and all who belong to this great profession.......we will be always grateful to you........our special thanks to the unforgettable doctors who struggle to give life to those who gasp for last breath..................

p.s off the post ,i want to share a memory-my teacher had written a story on anu,visualising her as the doctor of dreams![hey,cool................even those school days anu could influence someone to write a story on her.........]

sasneham,
anu